I’ve been chastising myself for accomplishing so little the past few days. Although I’ve tried to work at my normal rate, things just haven’t worked out well. Granted, the ranching business is quite busy as we prepare for the October production sale and the phone does, thankfully, ring quite often regarding our offering.
Yesterday, I thought I’d simply put down the jewelry design work and focus on sewing something for my 9 month old grandson. When I began the project, I noticed the cat begging at my window. Taking pity on her, I let her into the studio and out of the rain. There seemed to be a “thank you” in every swish of her tail. Following her initial pleasure, however, she realized I just wasn’t going to stop and continue petting her as long as she wanted. First she got in my lap as I worked at the sewing machine and then she hopped right up on the machine in an attempt to distract me. I wasn’t especially happy with her when my stitching went awry while she paced around on the machine cabinet. Eventually she prettied herself over on the fabric I was trying to cut out.
I finally gave up on that project and put it all away, except for the fabric I couldn’t get out from under the cat.
Another attempt at the jewelry did net a couple of pieces that are going out of state. Feeling a bit down about my lack of productivity, I realized that I did at least get pictures of them.
It seems I’m not the only person in my family who has been worrying about productivity lately. Twice on my last visit with my mother, she commented on how unproductive she felt. None of my philosophical dialogue seemed to comfort her. I tried my “age and stage” lecture, then the circle of life sermon, but they just didn’t work. Another resident, who is a friend to mother, overheard us talking. “That’s just silly",” she said in a very stern voice. “I’m productive if I just make it through another day!” “You should be happy to have accomplished that.” Mother didn’t bring up the subject again. Oh, for the wisdom of our elders – what would I do without it? I’m just beginning to see that I’ve been more productive than I realized.
Were you channeling my spirit when you wrote this? (except I would have thrown the cat back out the window at some point).
How often I feel like I am not “pulling my weight”, even though my partner tells me I am the hardest working woman he knows.
You are amazing. Thanks for the wisdom from the elders.
Thanks Sara. It’s nice to know I’m not the only person who feels unproductive sometimes. Does misery love company? Probably. I’m just trying to learn all that I can while Mother is still holding session.